I have seen one of the Ironman DVD shows (also shown on NBC). These shows are not just about the competition. They also follow strories of several people who have fought hard to be able to participate in the event (people with cancer or severe accidents behind them). I cried when I was watching the show because these people are so inspirational. What am I complaining about my health, I have two good legs and no serious life threatening illnesses.

There are limits to how far each of us can go, but the thing is that you can never know if you don’t try. My first step is getting continuous exercise routine going. I have one month behind now. That’s a start :-). Next I will have to spend some extra time with my hamstrings. I am so inflexible that it affects my running form. I have to change that. Then I will have to slowly get into better shape. I suspect that I’ll be ready to run a marathon from start to finish next summer. Maybe year after that I’ll be ready for sprint distance triathlon. Finding enough time to train for Ironman distance may require radically changing my daily schedule (cutting work hours etc.), but I’ll figure it out when I get there. All in all it will take years before I could be ready. It’s also possible that I’ll never be ready. We’ll see.

I feel fine now, but I had to rebuild all my values from nothing. I have dreams and goals. I have motivation. Unfortunately “keep working as nothing has happened” isn’t on my list. I can barely fit in “keep working because you have to get money”, but at the same time I know that every hour of my current work is away from my more important goals. (more…)

I like the method by Steve Pavlina. The idea is to condition yourself to get up immediately before your brain has time to protest. It worked for me before and I think I need to try it again.

I want to wake up feeling well rested, so I also need to go to bed early enough and listen some relaxing music. I am already experimenting with classical music and I think it helps (usually I listen power metal or fast trance… NOT good for relaxing).

I also try not to do anything too stimulating late in the evening (like playing poker or exercising). This has definitely helped me sleep earlier.

What else could I do? Oh yeah, no tea or coffee for a while.

See more progress on: get up when my alarm clock goes off

This makes me think about people who have ALWAYS had some issue that has caused their brain to function less than optimally. They can’t know that they are less happy than they could be! Only after becoming happier they can see that they really had a problem. (more…)

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Past 12 years have been ugly. I have had depression/anxiety/burnout like symptoms most of the time. I have had brain fog, memory problems, lack of motivation, inability to do physical exercise without getting low mood for days afterwards, loss of ability to smell, overhelming lethargy, … (more…)